I'm the Inspiration

I've been having a little trouble lately walking my talk. My dream in life is to be a famous motivational speaker. I want to write books, travel around and speak to others. I also want to flip houses for a living but I can do that too! Anyway, I am a somewhat controversial speaker. I never sugar coat things. I am very direct with people and I stand very strong for what I believe in. This sometimes shakes people up more than they would like to be shaken up and they sometimes react negatively; however, I can't ever remember a time when someone has reacted negatively and not come back to me some time later to thank me for the personal power I had given them. They were just not ready to hear my philosophies at that particular time I guess.

Lately I have been questioning the status of my life. Is this it? Is this how it is? I am married. I have a 4 year old and my husband has a 5 year old that we have 50% custody of. I am 4 months pregnant with another child. I own a successful medium sized business and a 'to be successful someday' small business. I have a rental property and a principal residence that require care and maintenance. I go to school full-time where I am studying to be a Paralegal. I know it sounds like a lot but the time committment is not that substantial considering. The issue for me is energy. I have fit all of those things into my schedule along with regularly scheduled workouts and house cleaning and of course the unexpected things that come up everyday. I just feel like there is so much more I want to do but don't have the energy. I want to wake up earlier so that I am not stressing my children in the morning (we are late because of me, not because of them!). I want to go for tea with my friends whom I have totally lost touch with over the years. I want to enjoy my husband more. I want to do one new thing every week, like try a new restaurant or go somewhere I have never been before. I want to build snowmen with my kids, do crafts, bake healthy treats and take them new places. I want to travel and I want to read more.

There has to be more to life than the stuff we have to do but how do we fit it all in? Well, the other day I was speaking to my beloved assistant at work about this very question and she said "so if you don't like the way things are going then change them! That's what you always do!" She's right! What the hell am I doing standing around whining? This is not the Nat I know or the Nat that she knows. Nat Goolamallee (or Rivier as you may know me) gets shit done. Change is my middle name. If I don't like something I change it! I tell everyone else to do the same and I question why they think it's so hard.

Then, 2 days ago I came into work and my nutritionist was counseling a client. I overheard the discussion a bit and realized I had spoken with this woman on the phone and had convinced her to join our 12-week weight loss program. I introduced myself and she said that she had already met me. She said I had been a guest speaker at "The Biggest Loser Ottawa" contest last year and she thought I was such an inspiration! Again, this struck a cord with me. Here is a woman who has 3 young children and is over 200 pounds. I know nothing else about her but I do know that being an overweight woman has to be one of the biggest personal hurdles to overcome, particularly in a society where it is not acceptable and in a society where good, healthy food is actually difficult to find!

So today I am back to being the Nat that I, and everyone else, know. If I want things to be different then it is up to me to change them. I started with a new hairstyle. Trivial, yet still a sign of new beginning.

Look forward to my blog more often now. I felt dull, like I had nothing new to talk about. Now I am back and each day brings new ideas, accomplishments, challenges and lessons. All of which I wish to share.